Spring Break Baby!

So the end of my winter quarter of school is nearly hear. I only have to go to class for my Analysing Plays class and I have my Geology 101 test and then I'm done and I'm so ready for this quarter to come to a close, not that it wasn't a good quarter. I just love when I have time to do who at I have been meaning to do and spring time where I live is so fabulous. Unfortunately, the 10 day forecast says it will be raining every day. So needless to say, I'm a little sad about that. However, that's just for finals week technically and I still have another week of break so I'm hopeful.
But since I essentially have two weeks of break, I want to make sure I'm using it to the best of the my ability so as tradition I will be making a to do list for the next two weeks.  Straight up I live to do lists. I write them throughout my day. That's just the kind of goal oriented person I am. So I'm going to be writing down what I plan to do this spring and surprise and suprise it's about the Whole30. 

Spring Break 2015

To Do List:

1.) Read It Starts With Food-

I've been meaning and wanting to do this 

more and more I do the Whole30 and right

Now would be the best time. There are so many 

things I want to understand more and I have heard 

so many people say it's a must so I'll do a blog post 

about it and what I thought and what I learned. 

2.) Reread Stanislavksi and The Actor and the Target. 

I read two of Stanislavski's books for acting class last year

and I feel like I didn't a super amount of information from it 

but I feel confident I'll get more out of it. And then we read 

The Actor and the Target and I loved it while reading it but I 

want to read it again because I'll be having the same teacher 

that assigned that book last year spring quarter so I think it will 

be super helpful for this quarter if I reread that book. 

3.)  Read Two More Acting Books-

I don't know which one I'll read but I have a few saved up that

I have been meaning to start reading. I love that spring break is the 

perfect time for this.

4.) Read a feminist book-

I definitely identify as a feminist and I have been meaing to read 

a few books on that subject matter. I'll definitely suggest some books if 

I really loved them and what I learned. 

5.) Reading the bible- 

If you've seem my other blog you know I am a christian. However, lately 

I've been having a hard time with it and I going to start reading the bible again.

Maybe get through a book I have read. You know, tiny leaps of faith.  

6.) Paleo Feast!- 

This time around one of my best friends is doing the Whole30 with me and

 it will be her birthday over break so we are going to have a birthday

 feast and maybe maybe go out for ... drinks. I don't know.

 I'll keep you posted and I'll tell you what we make 

and upload some pictures too. 

7.) A Crap of Hikes- 

The amount of hikes is my area is insane and during the winter,

it's hard to do all those hikes so I am taking this time to catch up

on my me and nature time. So I'll upload some pictures for you guys. 

8.) Resumes and finding a new job-

Really not fun but I'm setting up a rewards system for myself

and if I get a new job then that means $200 shopping spree. Or something. 

All these things might be subject to change, but I'll keep you updated. See you all in a few days. Happy Whole30!!

Rough Day

When you think you're doing so well, and something happens and you realize you've made a mistake and you've been making this mistake for a while, not letting that get you down is so hard. Well this week I have been drinking sparkling water with fruit flavor and fruit slices. Well I should have been looking more closely because some times I just look for sugar or soy or carrageenan so I just look for those ingredients and don't really read. Well of course the second ingredient is aspartame which of course is an articifial sweetener and is a no-no. On top of that, I normally get an almond milk latte and in my first Whole30 I asked is there almond milk sweetened and they said no. When looking at the milk container I recognized the milk container and I knew it had sugar and carrageenan and I was so disappointed. Plus, I eat too many Larabars so yeah... but I am trying to fix this and not fall back and not to feel discouraged. But I think it's important to remember, while the official Whole30 people will disagree,  perfection is not the goal, trying to be the best you can be is the point. Don't be mad at yourself if you make a mistake but be happy that you're trying with all you got. Don't be mad if you feel like your all isn't good enough. Just give your all regardless of the outcome because you know your strength. This is hard. Don't pretend it isn't. You are doing a hard thing. It's hard to deviate from the status quo of what is considered okay to put in your body particularly when unhealthy food is everywhere. But don't cheat yourself on an amazing experience. You deserve to learn to fight for what you what. I believe in you.

Day 5...

So it's my fifth day on the Whole30 and I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's been pretty damn easy. Usually the first day is the easiest and the next few days suck. However, for me, it has been the opposite. My first day didn't go to we'll but that was because I had work for 8 hours and I work at a coffee shop in my library and it's two weeks till finals so needless to say it was very busy and stressful. So to raise my dopamine levels (like the crack addict I am) I added pesto mayo to my BLT lettuce wrap and I had juice which isn't really okay on the Whole30. I also made clarified butter with vanilla beans and I was to tasted a little of the milk solids and yuck!! It tasted like poop. Figuratively speaking. Don't do what I did because not only our you not following the rules but it made me feel sick. My last cheat was the fact that I made a Zuppa Toscana soup paleo version which is a copy cat of a soup from Olive Garden and the sausage had less than 2% sugar in it. While all the other ones weren't really worth it, I am going to justify this choice but pointing out a few things. Firstly, I'm choosing between the lesser of two evils, doing the Whole30 with my own modifications versus  not doing the Whole30 because I can't do it perfectly. As a college student with a part time job at minimum wage, I don't have a lot of money On top of that, something I think is important to realize is that sugar itself is not the enemy. The carrageenan and MSG and sulfites and dairy and grain are far worse than sugar because sugar is in fruit and vegetables, all things that is okay to have on the Whole30 probably have equal if not more sugar. The greater question again like in the last post is "Am I eating this because I want sugar itself?" The answer is no. I am not eating this for a sugar fix, I'm eating this because if I didn't modify some rules for myself, I would not be able to financially support this endeavor.